I'm pretty sure that weekends weren't created for rest.
It's a good idea, but not realistic at all.
There is no day of rest at our home...
why?! why oh why is it so hard to "rest"??
Even when nothing is planned - something always happens... the cows get out, the water troughs freeze, the phone rings, the relatives come, the feed truck gets stuck, there is fence to be built, there is laundry to do, the dishwasher is always running, and life still goes on. It just goes on & on& on... and we continue to get up every day and live.
I've been reading a book called Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World: Finding Intimacy With God in the Busyness of Life by Joanna Weaver.
I started it several months ago.
I read a chapter, try my best to apply what I've read in my daily interactions and relationships, and then read another chapter a week or two later.
This weekend, I read a chapter about how all the "stuff" we have in our lives is like trying to hula-hoop with 25 hula-hoops at once, and still remain calm, focused, and "centered."
Now, I don't know about you, but as I mentally view this illustration, I don't see calm, collected, or centered.
I see frustration, anxiety, stress, and lack of focus.
I can barely do it with 1 hula hoop, let alone 25.
It describes a woman - a mom - who is doing everything to make her family "run."
It's me.
It's a picture of me trying to do so many things at once.
It's me piling one thing after another... although, lately I've been throwing some of those things to the side.
It's a wife, a mom, a teacher, a coach, a friend, a sister, a daughter - making things happen, making life happen, making the most of what life hands her.
It's me... and I'm just beginning to figure out the "calm, focused, & centered" part and what it means for "me."
It's such an awesome picture of what life is really like for so many of us!
We all try to juggle and spin and maneuver our way through life and are often not "centered."
I want to be centered, I want to be calm in the midst of a storm, I want to be that woman.
I'm learning that I'm becoming that woman.
I'm learning that becoming that woman takes time.
I'm learning that if I don't take time, it's not going to happen.
I had time this weekend.
I made time this weekend.
I enjoyed "friendship tea" and cinnamon rolls with my mother-in-law.
I visited with my mom on the phone - about life & love.
I watched my son "play" with his cousins and then kissed (he wouldn't go for sucking on the ice cube) his fat lip (3 times its normal size) because he "played" so hard.
I slept for 2.5 hours instead of trying to get everything done.
I scooped up a giant bag of cheerios that exploded as they were dropped down the stairs.
I watched a great movie as my son fell asleep next to me on the couch at 7:30.
I had great conversations with friends on the phone.
I built a giant tower of jumbo legos and laughed with Mason as we knocked them down.
I prayed for wisdom in raising my child.
I read another chapter in my book.
I worshiped God with a grateful heart.
I praised Jesus for His faithfulness and mercy.
I played outside in the fog.
I welcomed my husband home with a hot meal, a kiss, & a hug.
I did all of this... and it happened because I made time for God.
I'm not trying to preach - that is not my gift.
I'm not trying to say I'm any better than anyone else - I'm not.
I don't have this hula-hoop thing down.
I don't have all the answers to all the questions.
I'm letting you know that when I made the time that I thought for sure I didn't have...
great things happened.
I'm letting you know that a fat lip, cheerios, and rest are things that life hands you... and what you do with them... well... that's the test!