I've struggled with knowing what to do for you to make this 22nd day of February special for you ... and now that it's here, I find myself in this really weird place.
I've wrapped lots of fun presents for you {from the boys}.
I've purchased a special dessert just for you.
I've written in your card.
and ...
I've reflected {a lot} on the 7+ years I've known you.
You. Unique and original - YOU!
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It's been a rough month in our house.
We've been going, running, driving, chasing, crawling, screaming, crying, praying, begging, pleading ... here, there and everywhere.
We've all had to adjust to living under one roof again.
We've struggled with finding our groove, and somehow, someway, your birthday got thrown into the middle of it all.
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I'm a huge fan of birthdays.
I love celebrating the lives of others.
I love decorating, planning, and singing.
But to be honest, today {feb. 22} was hard.
The past week has been hard.
We've passed each other in the kitchen, seen each other a few mornings, and managed to eat a few dinners together - but not much else.
We've struggled with our boys.
We've struggled with commitments.
We've struggled with communicating.
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and ... as I attempted to plan for this day of {you} ... I found myself just wanting to do nothing.
Nothing {with you}.
I wanted and wished for a day with {nothing}.
No calves with broken legs.
No flat tires.
No frustrating conversations.
No cold & wet rain.
No chaos.
Why, oh why, can we never have a day that is just {normal}?
This day to celebrate YOU, was anything BUT nothing.
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Nothing.
That was {and still is} my wish for you. For us.
And tonight - after the chaos finally came to a halt - I sat across the table from you and felt peace.
Finally.
We had bacon, eggs, and biscuits for dinner. {your birthday dinner wish}
It wasn't fancy ... but it was good.
We laughed with our boys.
We laughed at each other.
You ate your triple scoop dish of Tillamook ice cream from the McDonald's drive-thru that I bought you this afternoon ... and even without the candle - it was {perfect}.
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Everything in the world seemed right tonight.
The night of our celebration of {you}.
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The chaos will always be there.
The frustrations won't go away.
The struggles with committing to things and communicating ... they will get better.
And my love for you - sweet husband of mine - will continue to grow!
Happy Birthday Ian ~ ♥ me ... your biggest fan!
13 comments:
You really know how to throw a party ...... the boys look like they loved watching Daddy open his treasures ...... that they enjoyed with him (Yum, Yum some gum)!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IAN!!!!!!!
We love you!
Happy Happy Birthday Ian!!!
(great post Lindsay) :)
thinking of you guys!
Happy Birthday Ian -- Hope your day was xtra special with your wonderful family.... Great post Lindsay...
Enjoy your week, hope this one is better than the last... Keep smiling:)
Happy B-Day Ian.
Does it mean we are getting old when a birthday of 'nothing' is our perfect wish granted?
Such a perfecet post. A great balance of real life - tough stuff- and contentment. Your happily ever after...
By the way, thank you so much for the email! I have definitely used some of yoru advice and I am looking into photo shop elementsd a little bit more. Exciting! :)
What a great post for Ian's birthday. Hope he enjoyed it!
cute! Ian, the boys, the presents, the tree, the post and you! cute!
Looks like a perfect day in the end to me! Happy birthday to your cattleman...!!! (Hoping it was truly a cattleman's lazy day!!! :D) And, praying you can find many more days to do "nothing"! May this week be blessed with His love, His peace, and His rest! Sweet blessings!
great post- i love the picture of ian with mason! ian has the look on his face that matches every word of what you've typed.
happy birthday ian! (from someone you don't even know- lol)
someone really brilliant once told me to..."keep on keepin' on". oh, wait. that was you ;)
this week- peace. i'll pray for you.
Praying for a little "nothing" in your days this week!
Happy Birthday Ian!
Love you all!
What a great post to your hubby. Looks like the perfect little celebration together as a family. :)
This is a great post, so honest. You ended up having a nice simple time together after all. I'm glad. Happy Birthday Ian!
HA! that banner - your Murdock generations ..I love it!!
what an impressive line of men to call your own :)
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